The Waiting Game

What preposition should I use? In or of? 
The Agony in/of Waiting.

"If you can wait and we will proceed with the application, your placement is for April 2017. I hope you can bear with us." She said. 

The last time we spoke, she said that should the other regions need ALTs by October, she might be able to send more of us this year. But still no guarantee. She guaranteed April 2017 provided that we can pass all the necessary screening tests.

I never thought that aiming to work abroad is this hard--from finding that right agency to help you with, to proving that you're worth it, to finding that initial fund--all of which requires waiting. So much waiting. That kind of waiting with uncertainty. You can only hope and trust others with your life. Trust yourself that you can get it done. Trust them that they are doing whatever they can. Trust that the universe is conspiring with you and of course, trust God that He is making all these waiting worthwhile. 

I keep reminding myself to take every day one at a time. Finish the workbooks and curriculum standards. Study well. Work hard. Save money. Read. Rest. 

Keep yourself busy, advised by my one of my friends. I am. However, at time like this, when traffic flow is so slow on a Thursday morning, sitting at the cab's backseat comfortably, I can't help but feel that agony that has been eating me up since I had set my goal to the Land of the Rising Sun. 

As the employer would always say: 'I don't want to send you there half-baked. Study Nihonggo. Read about the culture. Learn as much as you can. Have a goal." I know there are still underlying factors as to why she can’t send us all immediately.

I remind myself to take each day one at a time. Never break a routine. Finish the workbooks and curriculum standards. Reflect a lot. Work hard. Study harder. Save money. Read. Write. Pray.

Still keeping an eye for possibilities outside this thing but still mainly hoping for whatever it's worth. 

I really just hope that someday, I will reap what I sow. Some day. 

Some day, I could say I had mastered the art of waiting. LOL. 

For the meantime, it’s a Thursday, let’s get it on!


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Forgive me, traffic sa C5 as usual kaya kung anu-ano na lang.

7:34 AM
28 April 2016 








Mr. Kupido Cover

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Yung feeling na gustung-gusto ko na kamutin yung ilong ko kasi ang kati-kati na pero di ko magawa kasi ayoko na ulit magrecord ng panibago kasi alam kong pagod na ko. Hahahaha...

Pick A Fight

Dinners are usually filled with conversations about anecdotes on how our day had gone. Last Tuesday night's dinner wasn't different. Except that when Tito and Tita had their arguments and petty quarrels, it wasn't Tito who would usually share it first. However, that night when I arrived and asked how their morning appointment at a certain government office had gone, he started to tell me how Tita had been so pissed and the arguments that they had that day. 

"Ano ba yan, kayo na lang lagi magkasama, mag-aaway pa kayo." I said while setting the plates for dinner. 

"Naku, kung nandito si Kuya tapos nakita kayong ganyan, ewan ko na lang kung anong magiging reaction nya." I added chuckingly. 

"Alam mo yung mga nagkakasundo, sila yung mga naghihiwalay." Tito suddenly blurted while asking for another scoop of rice. 

"Hindi pa kasi kayo nagkakaron ng partner kaya ganyan kayo makapagsalita." Tita supportingly added to Tito's statement. 

Me, puzzled, asked, "Bat naghihiwalay? Eh magkasundo nga sila?" 

"Yung away kasi isang way yan para makilala nyo ang isa't-isa at para matutunan nyon tanggapin yung isa't-isa."  Tita explained. 

"Tsaka yung sa magkasundo, pagsinabing 'maghiwalay na tayo' at nagkasundo sila, o diba maghihiwalay nga sila? Di kasi sila nag-aaway." Tito added. 

"So, pano yun? Ok lang mag-away?" I was really troubled. 

"Kunsabagay, nung kami ni Gibo, di nga talaga kami nag-aaway until nung mag-decide akong ayoko na talaga." I said.

"Natural lang sa mag-asawa at nagsasama ang mag-away. Naririnig mo naman ang mga kapitbahay natin kung pano magmurahan diba? Pero nagsasama pa rin sila." Tito explained. 

"Pero di ko naman kayo nakitang ganun katindi mag-away ni Tita. Tsaka si Mama at Papa hindi rin. Silent treatment lang lagi si Mama kapag naiinis sya kay Papa." I said, almost done with my last spoon of rice to stuff into my mouth. 

I am not really good at arguments. My previous relationship had been so calm that it reached a point of boredom which then lead to cheating finally to the bad break up. 

I will just also have to remember, a sweet smile, a sorry, a calm conversation and a cup of Halo-halo from Chowking can always make miracles. 

That's Tito secret weapon to melt Tita's heart over and over again.

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7:24PM 

Written while waiting at the passenger jeepney lane, after attending the first day of the World Streetfood Congress where everything is overpriced. Ok fine, the Bali BBQ Back Ribs was to die for.


Saturday Thoughts

Late this afternoon, I decided to visit a new dentist because the former dentist is just not that good. The last filling on one of my molars had a dent and it has been giving me so much pain for almost two weeks now. In my head, I know that it's already for extraction and I am about to spend more for the repercussions of the said procedure as the front teeth are expected to move as well. 

The dentist does not want to extract the tooth saying,  "Sayang naman. Balik ka na lang sa dentist mo kasi sya nakakaalam kung pano gagawin sa dent. Maliit lang yung crack eh." 

"If ever po ba, pwede pa po ulit na i-pasta na lang?" I asked. 

"Oo naman. Kasi sayang talaga at magagawan pa naman ng paraan yan." She insisted. 

"Sige po, i-pasta nyo na lang po." I said. 

She did the procedure and I noticed a great difference on how light her hands were moving expertly inside my wide-open mouth. The suction was not bothering my tongue at she carefully moves it around as well. 

She tapped the side of my molar tooth with that silver stick with a small mirror, the one dentists always carry with them. 

"Mangilo ba?" She asked. 
"Hindi naman po." I answered. 
"Pero parang pumipintig pa pero hindi naman po kasakit." I added. 
"Baka na-trauma lang yung sa loob kasi nga nagka-crack. Sana nga hindi na sya sumakit after this." She said. 
"Doc, thank you po. It would have been hard po talaga kung nabunutan ako ng ngipin today kasi po dami ko pong ginagawa." I said thankfully. 

"It's ok. Sayang naman talaga kasi. Lahat naman yan nagagawan ng paraan lalo at  ganyan lang kaliit ang crack. Tsaka inom ka lang din ng painreliever. Tapos pag masakit pa rin, balik ka na lang dito." She calmly told me. 

Sayang naman. 
Magagawan pa yan ng paraan. 
Sayang kasi. 

Sana lang po applicable ang ganitong kyeme sa lahat ng aspects in life. 

Hanash lang kasi Sabado at nagawa kong lahat ng nasa aking checklist mula sa labada hanggang sa pagplantsa. Patunay ang blog entry na ito na habang ginagawa ko ang pagpaplantsa, eh nakapagmuni-muni ako. At di na masakit ang ngipin ko.