My 2015

How good it feels to just sit down, type away thoughts and look back to how the year had gone by so fast. There were days that I prayed to be over sooner and days I wished to go slower or never even end. But still, to live with my very first mantra, "this too, shall pass". 2015 is about to end. I can't remember being as emotional as this for the past few years of reflecting on how the year had gone by.

 As I look back, I think almost half of my life is posted on social media. Gotta change that in 2016.

I had read less, finished less than 10 books this year. Most of them non-fiction.

Climbed a couple of mountains with friends old and new.

Celebrated birthdays of old folks.

I had a few plans that got blown up.

Met amazing people along the way

Renewed friendship with a few.

Parted ways with some whom I know I will meet again in heaven. The feeling of loss still pains me. Whenever I remember, I still cry.

Tried to show my appreciation and spend time with people whom I cherish in my life, be it family, friends, colleagues, strangers and cats.

Honestly, 2015 was a selfish year. It was a year I tried to do things that really are all for my own happiness and satisfaction. Like that climb to Mt. Pulag and Gulugod Piggy. That trip to Coron with Cher Jo and Emil and that unplanned ice cream trips to that expensive Baskin Robbins and DQ among them and others I cant remember on top of my head right now. 

2015 filled me with surprises. Amazing surprises from flowers, to more flowers, and cake and letters and others I really have to take time to think of. 

Doing this recap, I hoped to remember good things, lessons and be remembered as somebody who tried to be good as well. Even though, I know that everything must come to an end and will come to an end, it is still unbelievable that it will soon be over in a few hours. Though obviously, nothing really will change as the clock tick twelve midnight for first of January, 2016. It brings so much hope that a new day and a new chance for all failed attempts and plans will come. 

I am ending 2015 working. Will be welcoming 2016 working. Not a bad idea. Focused and simple.

Thank you 2015! It was an amazing  year! Let 2016 be filled awesomeness. 

Saying goodbye and thank you to 2015 and aiming high to 2016! For more sunrises and jumpshots all over! 

DFB #4

Dear Future Boyfriend, 

I hope you dont mind brushing nail polish on my left index finger. It's a mess when I do it alone. 


Hahahaha... I'm aint looking for a boyfriend, I am looking for a kikay buddy. LOL.

25 December 2015

It’s 3 o’clock past twelve midnight. I just got up from bed and I still feel dizzy because of the lack of sleep and rest. But I can’t fight my grumbling stomach’s plea to get up and eat. So, I did. Everyone from the household has gone to bed after Noche Buena.

A few years back, I take time to collect gifts for everybody that made my year special, count my godchildren and made sure not to miss anyone. Christmas shopping used to be an exciting thing to do. Grocery shopping used to be something I look forward to. I even try to make a checklist of everything for budget and to make sure not to miss anything. Eventhough I would usually had to go to work on Christmas Eve, Christmas preparations used to excite me.

As I get older, Christmas gets more solemn, silent and alone or just being around people in small numbers. This year, my shopping list was minimal and was done the last minute. I never had plans of wrapping gifts this year, everything would have been on cash gift basis as that is the easiest and lightest way to go around. I had no plans of wrapping the gifts, but still I did. It was still a fun thing to do. Imagine wrapping excitement and then the person receiving the gift unwrapping surprise.

Christmas day itself will be spent doing the laundry. After a couple of weeks plus this week’s clothing, I can’t afford to miss another laundry session. My closet is almost empty. Haha. I was thinking of coming to Tagaytay with Tita and Tita with their guests from La Union, but my laundry couldn’t wait any longer. Then, later in the afternoon, I will go to my parents’ house bearing gifts and ready to hear the latest neighborhood “news” from my childhood friends.

A few things hasn’t changed though like taking time to spend time with people who are special and important in my life. Giving and surprises are still exciting. Gratefulness in everything and everyone will always be there. As I try to live a life of gratefulness, my Christmas will always be special. Also, Christmas is never about me.

Happy Birthday Jesus! From the manger to the cross, you gave your life to save sinners like me. I am nothing but a grateful soul for that.


Peter Quinn: ........ what else could have made a difference?


Peter Quinn: Hit Reset.

Homeland Season 5 Episode 1

Tiwi 2015

I didn’t realize that my usual Albay homecoming falls every 12th of December until the See Memories function of Facebook allowed me to see it as it is. Except for one year when my cousins were here for the holidays, my 12th of December had always been for Albay. Thankful to the recent sideline project I got, I was able to fly to my second home.

The flight was uneventful and since I just got to the airport straight from work, all I wanted to do was go through the day and be home for dinner. Unknown to me, Lola refused to take lunch because she wanted to join me for lunch since she thought I will arrive just in time for lunch.

A Saturday before typhoon Nona hit PH, the weather in Albay was cloudy with scattered rainshowers but there are still times that Mayon had been cleard of clouds.

The only tense-filled activity I did was to think of gifts for the kids at a very limited amount of time since I have to rush to the terminal and avoid being left behind the city for the last trip to my lola’s town. I didn’t bring any pasalubong, so I had to rush to the mall and buy a few stuff for the kids. For my lola, it’s automatic cash, for my titas, it would be whatever I have on my bag in exchange to whatever I can find around the house, sometimes even nothing for them. It’s kinda hard to give them gifts since they can afford most of the things I wanted to give them.

Whenever I am in the city, I make sure to eat at this local diner. 

After a plane ride, a tricycle ride, a quick lunch at the local diner, speedy shopping spree, a jeepney ride to the terminal, a short wait for the van to be filled, a short notice for a Jolllibee stop, another jeepney ride, then a pedicab ride, I am home.
I am home!
I don’t have a bed nor a room of my own anymore since they had built a new house. Since my little cousins decided to sleep with me, we just had a mattress laid out on the sala. We woke up early and since it was a Sunday, we went to the beach. When I am here, I try to do the usual things I do when I used to live here. Waking up early. Helping in the kitchen or in the pigpen, feeding the chickens, and going for a morning walk by the beach. Lola used to ask me to water the plants in the garden, probably to make grow fond of gardening and all that stuff. Also, it was the first time I came home without Lolo. 

Shot taken very early in the morning at Baybay, Tiwi, Albay. 

I had made plans to meet a few people over the course of couple days, one small reunion with a few high school friends and the other one with a very close college friend.

The trip back to the place where I spent my teen years (seven years) is always something I look forward to as I get a chance to go back where I started my dreams and be grateful to the all the people who had helped me. It is always refreshing, relaxing and recharging.

Tiwi will always be my home.

What Was.

I don’t know what is my point of writing this but I am so much into what my past was. How good. How kind. How peaceful. How simple.

Back  when I was not yet an adult.
When I was still young and innocent of the travesties of this life.
When falling in love is a great feeling, as if it's all the matters.

It WAS a good life. 

No Joke

Hindi ko alam kung anong gusto kong maramdaman sa sinabi ng High School classmate ko. 


Him: Cge, next year na lang Cat, kaso wala pa kong mabibitbit na asawa, maghahanap pa lang ako.
Me: Pag wala pa, tayong dalawa na lang, gawin kitang keychain
Him: Ayoko sayo, masyado kang maganda para sakin hehehe
Me: Nagbibiro ka lang diba?
Him: hahaha hindi eh. Di ako nagjo-joke mis pusa.

Tanong Lang

Kapag sinabi ko bang hindi ako boboto at wala akong maisip na maiboto, ibig sabihin ba nun, wala na akong pakialam sa Pilipinas?